drug to me

my friend called me up on Tuesday to say her lover'd gone away
you called me up on Wednesday and said you couldn't stay
you thought that I'd surrender cause I didn't want to play
you know, I know
you always liked them begging

and I know there is no way to show you how I loved you even when
you wouldn't speak my name, and you couldn't comprehend
how a girl could know how much easier it is to never win
I know, you know
I've never walked out begging

but I'm sleepy now and tipsy on your floor
you pretend to blow a kiss as you're walking out that door
I say that love is everything,
and you said you needed more
I think I'm blending

cause you are like a drug to me
careful that I don't o.d. on your memory
you are like a drug to me
this is not who I want to be

a thousand stretched tight evenings taught me things I'll never say
like how I learned to close my hands before I pray
some things fade to openness and some things fade away
I know, I know
God doesn't like us begging

now I sing songs as if I knew you, as if you had known me
while a dozen drunken people pretend that they can see
they pay to watch me suck the marrow from your memory
you know, you know
I'd never leave them begging

but it's over now and I'm coming down off stage
your phone call wakes me but I try to act my age
I say that love is freedom and I'm living in a cage
you hang up, I fall back to nothing

cause sleep is like a drug to me
careful that I don't o.d. on my crying dream
sleep is like a drug to me
don't want to talk, don't want to bleed

ahh...